Anger

Following highly-publicized incidents of police violence, an infuriated America began to spontaneously protest unequal standards of policing and racial justice. Americans realized the country they thought they lived in wasn’t real for a huge number of their fellow citizens. Hundreds of thousands joined peaceful protests, which were often accompanied by rioting, bloodshed, and violence. Black Lives Matter protests were echoed across the globe.

Say, who are you that mumbles in the dark?
And who are you that draws your veil across the stars?—Let America Be America Again, Langston Hughes – 1902-1967

Bargaining

The science is clear. Expert opinion is plentiful. Until there’s a vaccine, the best defense against the pandemic is a combination of social distancing, mask wearing, and contact tracing. As economies melted down around the world, it was often the most highly-developed countries who made political bargains, bowed to pressures to lift lockdown, failed contact tracing, loosened economic and social distancing requirements.

The UK took the bargaining approach, effectively saying people could do whatever they wanted, but they hoped they would want to do what the government wanted them to do. When Prime Minister Boris Johnson was asked specifically why the UK was failing compared to countries like Germany and Italy, he replied:

“Actually, there is an important difference between our country and many other countries around the world. That is that our country is a freedom loving country.” He continued, “And it is very difficult to ask the British population uniformly to obey guidelines in the way that is necessary.”

Unimpressed, Italian President Sergio Mattarella had a pithy (and rhyming!) response: “Anche noi italiani amiamo la libertà ma abbiamo a cuore anche la serietà”. (“We Italians also love freedom, but we also care about seriousness.”)

Sadness, Depression

The Motherhood-tax is one of the biggest, best-hidden taxes of all. As Amanda Taub reports for the New York Times, the pandemic has the potential to eliminate women’s hard-won economic gains of the past decade. Work from home, no matter how employers embrace the concept, overwhelmingly means working mothers lose their childcare support system, and are now juggling two fulltime roles, parent and provider. The emotional and financial consequences reach far beyond the lockdown itself, with lifetime income reductions of 39% for a one year absence from the workforce and 65% reduction for employment gaps of four years or more. “Around the world, working women are facing brutally hard choices about whether to stay home if they haven’t already been laid off.”

 

Acceptance

One of my sisters told me her neighbors put a sign in her yard supporting an extremely conservative political candidate. She removed it multiple times and finally threw it away. To her shock, her neighbors screamed at her, shaking with rage, and insisting they had the right to display signs in her yard because theirs couldn’t be seen from the street, shaking their fist and yelling, “F*** YOU!”

In her sixty years, my sister said, she’d never had anyone say that to her. I told her I wasn’t sure what was the weirdest part of the story—that the neighbors thought they had rights to her yard, or that it’s the first time someone hurled the f-bomb at her. Other siblings offered suggestions about the police and video records.

But it was my sister who has spent decades teaching middle school kids from some of Los Angeles’ most challenging neighborhoods who really made me stop and think about anger and how to live with its fallout. She told us about stopping earlier that day to help a young mother with a flat tire, and how other cars just honked and yelled at them for being in the way. The young woman didn’t have breakdown coverage, so my sister used her own card to call for help. Her message to the rest of us was simple. “…just go find something nice to do for another person as a way to pass on good energy. Let your neighbor deal with her own bad karma.”

I hope I can come out of 2020 the way my sister suggested. I hope I can help others and let the ones I can’t reach stew in their own bad karma. But either way, I know I’ll still grieve for not only the family and friends who have died unfairly early and before anyone could have prepared for it, but also a world and a past that has, in so many ways, died as well.